2003-08-20 - 10:04 p.m.

There's this girl my friends Jess and Jay have been trying to set me up with; her name is also Jessica. With three "Jess's" there is sure to be some weirdness.

Jessica finally called me tonight, letting me know that "You're really mind kind of guy but..."

But?

But she's not attracted to me? But she can't make time? But I'm a poor ass scrub and she's looking for someone more mature?

"...but I'm not really looking for a guy right now.... I've meet a girl."

I feel like a supporting actor on a soap opera, like someone that shows up every three weeks and serves to move the plot along, slightly, or perhaps only closes old plot loops.

Somebody take a shot of tequlia for me. I'd have one myself, but my stomach, while feeling better still doesn't feel good.

Oh well.

I'll probably head into work tomorrow, and I will probably piss in that little freaking cup they want me to piss in. For now, I will spark up an American Spirit, watch the smoke rise, and imagine little dreams and old loves in the blue-gray air.

Can you tell I have spent much of today rereading Sandman?

(hmm..., do you underline comic book tittles, as real books, or do you put the titles in quotes, like poems and such. What is the proper means to embellish a perodical's title, and would you use that on a collected anthology? These things keep me up at night.)

The Audrey Ryan Band is playing at the All Asia in Cambridge on the 23rd, from 9pm to 11pm. Come out if you are out there, 'cause the music is.

It takes about ten mintues for me to smoke an American Spirit, which is about a third longer than people take to smoke most other king size ciggies.

And if anyone knows a girl looking for a guy, let me know. I had writen an email to another friend regarding that, but I nary recieved a response. Of course old K-T is pretty damn bad about returning emails.

In other news, I hope to be moving soon, I will keep you posted. I would have liked to have that confirmed at this point, but my illness got in the way.

There's got to be a poem here somewhere.

-Jesse