2004-04-30 - 11:51 p.m.

Ok, so I'm feeling horny and I'm about to masterbate and I'm getting all settled in when I notice a light in the window. At first it seemed like it was the reflection from a light in my room, then I realized I don't have any lights on in my room. I look again, and it turns out there is a light on in the house about 40 feet away, where I have noticed a light there before and I can see clearly into the room where the light is on. Its a kitchen. The fact that I can see clearly in there when the shades are up means that any occupants can see more or less clearly into my bedroom, which makes me wonder how many times I have been caught with my, uhm, pants down. It also makes me wonder how exhibtionist I am. Would it be exicting to be caught? Is the danger exhilarting? I've never had sex in a public place, my sexual confidence is low enough that I have to be real comfortable. The nearest I have come is jerking off in a rest room at work. Which is not to say I'm not into kink, but that exhibitionism hasn't been my pervesion before.

Notably, there's a gender issue here. A woman in the window is a neighborhood resource, but a guy masterbating in full view is a perv.

Life is weird.

By the way, my folks leave for Cancun tomorrow to celebrate their 28th anniversery. and...

I AM GOING TO VEGAS!

Two of my cousins are getting married on the same day for Labor Day weekend, one in upstate new york, who I see on a regular basis, and one in Vegas, who i haven't seen in like 15 yrs. It will be good to see Billy again.

w00t

The new job is great.

hmmm... well, it is Walpurgis night.

-Jesse